The morning has come

My tired body woke this morn. Today I feel good. The fireplace warms my home. The snow is coming down steady outside. Seamus my black cat, sits on his cat perch and watches it slowly fall to the ground.

My husband always brings me coffee when I first get up. I am so truely lucky to have him.  Fall flavor coffees! This one is maple and it is amazing. I feel so alive as I drink it down. The snow is blowing from the trees and it creates an amazing sparkle in the air. It is bright out even though Grey clouds cover the sky.  The beauty of this moment lingers in my mind.

I feel a sense of peace in my whole being. This is what it feels to truly be alive. My heart s so filled with joyous song and warmth. To have such a rare moment is never fleeting. Such a wondrous thing to hold on too. 

There is something to truly behold about this time of year.  It brings out happiness and joy. May it follow you through this Monday and beyond.

Self care apple tarts "Slightly deformed" :D

One amazing thing I have gotten into is making or baking... I made some yummy malformed tarts. When we go to Barns and Noble to get books. I love to grab an Americano and an apple tart. Let's face it. They are delicious.  So yesterday I sat there looking at the two apples I had left. and started to look for easy tart recipes. All called for premade pie crust. So then I was like okay. I'll just make a crust. Recipes for both are here; Links below. Tart filling: https://www.pillsbury.com/recipes/mini-apple-pies/d4b31ad3-7816-4971-a3f5-37eca7e017f7
 Pie crust:https://cincyshopper.com/easy-pie-crust/


Mind you, I broke out my rolling pin and got to work. looking back I should have taken more photos. But that's okay. Of course, I had never mad a pie crust so it was a challenge. I rolled out eight tiny crusts and placed them in my muffin tin.

Then I chopped up my two apples and made the filling...

I had a feeling of joy and satisfaction after this.  In the oven, they went. :D

They turned out yummy. Not too pretty but yummy.  But don't mind the odd color. I took the photo under a grow light, I keep for my herbs I grow.  Sadly those plants died. But I will tell a story about that another day.

This morning I had some with coffee so wonderful. I hope you all have a great day! Thank you for Stopping in.

Yummy Bagels

Found The recipe here:

https://www.realmomnutrition.com/easy-homemade-bagels/


I used whole wheat flour and they turned out amazing... I will probably skip the egg part next time. I prefer them without the egg wash. Enjoy!

A long time coming?

As I sit here watching the snow fall, I think of moments gone by. It has been so long since I have written a comic or a blog.  I spent so many of my days not doing what I wanted to. Fear failing or simply that I am just not good enough.

The winter sky is always either a bright blue or has hints of grey. I really love this time of year between November and March. All my favorite holidays happen. Here I am rambling again. Back to self-care.

Things have indeed gotten neglected on my end. I have started going back to the gym. Which is huge for me due to the general Anxiety disorder and PTSD. But I am lucky to have an amazing husband that is very supportive. We work out together.

I miss having friends. I really do, I tend to however pick people that are users. This is so unhealthy. One of the things I am doing it a mindfulness group. It is very helpful in learning unhealthy patterns and solving them.

So in writing this, I am hoping to reach out to others that have setbacks.  There are days I can't leave my home because I have such bad attacks. When the panic sets in, fear and loathing take over.  It is one of the worst feelings in the world.

As my husband Steven says, right now my job is self-care.  Learning to interact with others in my group is one step to achieving this. Also getting back to driving again. I really miss the days, of driving down the road. When I lived in Alaska I used to drive all over the place.


So thank you for reading this post. I know it's rough around the edges. I am a little rusty. So I sip my earl grey tea and enjoy its warmth. I think of others going through rough times. I hope we can all grow and learn together.

Twin Demons

They Say Goddesses we are
Those who leave us are doomed
We are Goddesses we control the Fates
We are power
The similar vanity covered in insanity
I feared leaving them shedding the control
The darkness they shared
Brutality and insanity  
Fear despite the control
The Goddesses are they Demons
Under the guise of friendship
Breaking the mold
Saying untrue things
Trying to create Darkened Beings
Goddesses that seek control
Fear and pain creating the newest theme
Now they have no Control
The Muse cried out set me free
A fire Ignited in her soul
The Goddesses were banished
Now Their Demons Surface
The true face of control
The Muse cries out
The moonlight shines into the darkened night
Fear no longer she cries
The Goddess Demons are no more
The Muse her soul free
The Muse with her dragon soul

Viking gun metal Bracelet

Beautiful.... I highly recommend this Etsy artist... Stunning work... Fits great. <3  Very well made and forged..

I chose this Design because it is smaller which is good for my wrists.. :)

Link to his shop! 

https://www.etsy.com/shop/Shamaniccharms?ref=l2-shopheader-name

Happy Yule "Hedwig"