As I sit here watching the snow fall, I think of moments gone by. It has been so long since I have written a comic or a blog. I spent so many of my days not doing what I wanted to. Fear failing or simply that I am just not good enough.
The winter sky is always either a bright blue or has hints of grey. I really love this time of year between November and March. All my favorite holidays happen. Here I am rambling again. Back to self-care.
Things have indeed gotten neglected on my end. I have started going back to the gym. Which is huge for me due to the general Anxiety disorder and PTSD. But I am lucky to have an amazing husband that is very supportive. We work out together.
I miss having friends. I really do, I tend to however pick people that are users. This is so unhealthy. One of the things I am doing it a mindfulness group. It is very helpful in learning unhealthy patterns and solving them.
So in writing this, I am hoping to reach out to others that have setbacks. There are days I can't leave my home because I have such bad attacks. When the panic sets in, fear and loathing take over. It is one of the worst feelings in the world.
As my husband Steven says, right now my job is self-care. Learning to interact with others in my group is one step to achieving this. Also getting back to driving again. I really miss the days, of driving down the road. When I lived in Alaska I used to drive all over the place.
So thank you for reading this post. I know it's rough around the edges. I am a little rusty. So I sip my earl grey tea and enjoy its warmth. I think of others going through rough times. I hope we can all grow and learn together.
