The morning has come

My tired body woke this morn. Today I feel good. The fireplace warms my home. The snow is coming down steady outside. Seamus my black cat, sits on his cat perch and watches it slowly fall to the ground.

My husband always brings me coffee when I first get up. I am so truely lucky to have him.  Fall flavor coffees! This one is maple and it is amazing. I feel so alive as I drink it down. The snow is blowing from the trees and it creates an amazing sparkle in the air. It is bright out even though Grey clouds cover the sky.  The beauty of this moment lingers in my mind.

I feel a sense of peace in my whole being. This is what it feels to truly be alive. My heart s so filled with joyous song and warmth. To have such a rare moment is never fleeting. Such a wondrous thing to hold on too. 

There is something to truly behold about this time of year.  It brings out happiness and joy. May it follow you through this Monday and beyond.

Self care apple tarts "Slightly deformed" :D

One amazing thing I have gotten into is making or baking... I made some yummy malformed tarts. When we go to Barns and Noble to get books. I love to grab an Americano and an apple tart. Let's face it. They are delicious.  So yesterday I sat there looking at the two apples I had left. and started to look for easy tart recipes. All called for premade pie crust. So then I was like okay. I'll just make a crust. Recipes for both are here; Links below. Tart filling: https://www.pillsbury.com/recipes/mini-apple-pies/d4b31ad3-7816-4971-a3f5-37eca7e017f7
 Pie crust:https://cincyshopper.com/easy-pie-crust/


Mind you, I broke out my rolling pin and got to work. looking back I should have taken more photos. But that's okay. Of course, I had never mad a pie crust so it was a challenge. I rolled out eight tiny crusts and placed them in my muffin tin.

Then I chopped up my two apples and made the filling...

I had a feeling of joy and satisfaction after this.  In the oven, they went. :D

They turned out yummy. Not too pretty but yummy.  But don't mind the odd color. I took the photo under a grow light, I keep for my herbs I grow.  Sadly those plants died. But I will tell a story about that another day.

This morning I had some with coffee so wonderful. I hope you all have a great day! Thank you for Stopping in.

Yummy Bagels

Found The recipe here:

https://www.realmomnutrition.com/easy-homemade-bagels/


I used whole wheat flour and they turned out amazing... I will probably skip the egg part next time. I prefer them without the egg wash. Enjoy!

A long time coming?

As I sit here watching the snow fall, I think of moments gone by. It has been so long since I have written a comic or a blog.  I spent so many of my days not doing what I wanted to. Fear failing or simply that I am just not good enough.

The winter sky is always either a bright blue or has hints of grey. I really love this time of year between November and March. All my favorite holidays happen. Here I am rambling again. Back to self-care.

Things have indeed gotten neglected on my end. I have started going back to the gym. Which is huge for me due to the general Anxiety disorder and PTSD. But I am lucky to have an amazing husband that is very supportive. We work out together.

I miss having friends. I really do, I tend to however pick people that are users. This is so unhealthy. One of the things I am doing it a mindfulness group. It is very helpful in learning unhealthy patterns and solving them.

So in writing this, I am hoping to reach out to others that have setbacks.  There are days I can't leave my home because I have such bad attacks. When the panic sets in, fear and loathing take over.  It is one of the worst feelings in the world.

As my husband Steven says, right now my job is self-care.  Learning to interact with others in my group is one step to achieving this. Also getting back to driving again. I really miss the days, of driving down the road. When I lived in Alaska I used to drive all over the place.


So thank you for reading this post. I know it's rough around the edges. I am a little rusty. So I sip my earl grey tea and enjoy its warmth. I think of others going through rough times. I hope we can all grow and learn together.

Twin Demons

They Say Goddesses we are
Those who leave us are doomed
We are Goddesses we control the Fates
We are power
The similar vanity covered in insanity
I feared leaving them shedding the control
The darkness they shared
Brutality and insanity  
Fear despite the control
The Goddesses are they Demons
Under the guise of friendship
Breaking the mold
Saying untrue things
Trying to create Darkened Beings
Goddesses that seek control
Fear and pain creating the newest theme
Now they have no Control
The Muse cried out set me free
A fire Ignited in her soul
The Goddesses were banished
Now Their Demons Surface
The true face of control
The Muse cries out
The moonlight shines into the darkened night
Fear no longer she cries
The Goddess Demons are no more
The Muse her soul free
The Muse with her dragon soul

Viking gun metal Bracelet

Beautiful.... I highly recommend this Etsy artist... Stunning work... Fits great. <3  Very well made and forged..

I chose this Design because it is smaller which is good for my wrists.. :)

Link to his shop! 

https://www.etsy.com/shop/Shamaniccharms?ref=l2-shopheader-name

Happy Yule "Hedwig"

Soul

Her beautiful soul was ravished
The time and turmoil had broken that beautiful soul
Away and alive to say the least
Her heart never gave to the lost
Lost forever to the tormentor of the damned
For now only now has her Beauty sought
Thus more of the rising of the moon the light had shown
For now it is time
Beauty remains
The day is never the same
Forever the moments will be here
For love and fear
The Tormentor is all that remains here my dear

Dancing Dreaming

The Dawn is here
The Sun has whimsy
Orange lights dancing
Lovely sights
Beautiful lights
Night is Gone
Day is here
Sunlight Dancings
Clouds Form Daylight fades
Night has come
Purple Green Remains
Beautiful Light
Lovely Sight
Hear comes the Night...

Never give up on your dreams

The Magic Book So to Speak

 I started reading A book in The Secret series called The Magic.
Below are a few photo shots of exercises in the book.

The book is by Rhonda Byrne! Amazing book... I loved The Secret and the Law of Attraction. This goes deeper into The lesson of you are what you think. We are shaped by things that happen to us in life. 

I have had many life lessons about this very thing. It takes time to learn this. For some it is easy some it is harder. And this is okay. I actually, like the way this book takes a look at life and things around your environment.

I have a book daily you add to a list of things you are grateful for. Also Printed ,out photos of people: I care for.  Look at the photos remembering how grateful I am to have them in my life...

It takes you through 27 days of changing how you think. The mind becomes trained to feel harsh and unforgiving.. We are shaped by things that happen to us.

I am very hard on myself for no reasons at times.

But Through this I learn to understand who I am. We all go through hard times. Some more than other, 

Soon Steven and I will be moving to Colorado... This is very exciting... Well that is all for now. I will keep you posted..

Sorrow

Sorrow comes in many forms
A broken heart can heal
A mind fallen can return
Clipped Wings Fly free
Sorrow can be fleeting
Moments of tear drops Glistening in the sun
Now the moon light keeps them
Sorrow comes in many forms
But every moment
Every Breath
Is a Moment for Sorrow
To return And Be replaced with the euphoria of Love

Hi

I just wanted to take a moment to say hello. I want to thank all of you for reading my comic! It means the world to me. With out you there is not Oracle of The Dragonfly. I am working on a new post soon it will be up. I know it has been since dec... of last year since I made a new episode. I have been really struggling with self esteem and getting it done. I have a lot of support and that helps. I am getting very good ideas going and I promise soon it will be up. Thank you for all of your Support you guys rock!

Company of Reichwald Phase one Edit

My fear

As of late I have been avoiding working on my comic. Fear of doing something that will progress me towards goals in life. never a good thing. I did get to help a friend this week so that was good. I enjoy seeing people happy. I hope that you all have a good night. Back to fear. Fear for an artist can be overwhelming. I struggled with this even in art school. IT is mostly old tapes running around my head from the ex. Thank goodness Steven is so different and that helps. I am so very grateful for that. He helps me with everything even the comic.. My life dream. Which in ,this day and age is easier to accomplish with sights like Amazon and blogger. Where you can publish your ideas or works. And Perhaps even make a few bucks. But it is late so I am off to bed good night all.

My thoughts

Puzzled by my lack of wanting to work on my comic. So I am going to write and see how I feel. I have been emotional lately and feeling out of sorts. Picking up the pencil shouldn't be an issue. But today it is. Fear is ruling my thoughts.

Some moments are better than others, this is okay. Moments come and go I have creative thoughts in my head. It is just getting them down on paper. I know I can do it. IT is going to take time. Well that is all for now.

Ever changing Interlocks

I have found everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it is not always clear why. Memories always flooding my mind. Standing on the edge of the galaxy not understanding what I have seen. Others like me seeing the planets of our home line up in perfect order. The air is cool calm, then suddenly I find myself here awake in my bed again. Am I seeing the past a genetic memory of my family?  Am I the last of a once great space fairing race stranded here on Earth? Holding my coffee trembling unsure what to think, the real world encroaches and I dress for work.


The water is cold in the shower, my tiny apartment never has hot water. Shivering I dry off, looking in the mirror I slap on mascara and sunscreen. I can never get it right sigh, pulling my jeans on my red sweater I run out the door for work. Running with my coffee in hand the bus zooms by.
"Well, that is just great." Standing in the snow I truck back to the bus covering and wait.
The sky is cold and grey. I am shivering more. The coffee turns cold. My mind goes back to the strange dreams I have at night.

I found myself looking back and as I did I stood silent in the snow, looking into my dreams.

Standing on a hard metal floor,  I look around.  I know this place is hot from steam. I hear cries and fear. I stand to hold a weapon it is not anything we have now. It is very old.
"You follow me." I follow the man. Strangely I know him. We are friends, closely I keep to the wall. We are afraid, the metal wall is cold but the air and steam are hot. Sparks are going off everywhere.
The women appeared in front of me. Licking her long Claws Speaking " Sorry darling". The man in front of me Sharnas drops to the ground. The Creature woman smiles pulling her claws from him. She is not Human, nor a reptile. She was feathered long legs and airs a purple-green color. I stood silent time seemed to stop. My friend still at the moment, unmoved. I look down holding the Weapon I fire towards the woman as she laughs. Pulling Sharnas while fighting to get away. I looked down, it seems I was standing on a grated floor. Hundreds of tiny skulls and bodies could be seen. I could feel the bile wanting to come up. I force it back, fighting and pulling I manage to get into a corridor. The bird reptile like female stood in front of me. A struggle ensued, I felt myself fly a crossed the room. Falling hitting the wall, hard looking up I felt myself trembling. Angry something inside of my soul fought back.  I stood up, charging screaming NO More. I used the force of my body, hitting the bird-reptile like female, she fell to the ground.


"BEEP BEEP" A sound startled me back to the reality of heading to work.
The Driver Looked at me. "Hey, You want the bus or not? I don't have all day lady."
I looked up. "Sorry, I must have spaced out." Of course, I got the normal strange looks.
Nothing new.  The of the man stuck in my head Sharnas. Why what did it, this mean. I laid my head against the bus window. The snow sparkled in the sunrise, beautiful the sky glowed a purple-green color as the sun rose over the mountain range. The color not unlike that of the woman from my dream. Sharnas what did he mean to me, was it a dream or real. The bus pulled out and I was off to work at a tiny book store slightly late as always.

BB 8

Spent some Time Drawing BB 8 today.. I am super excited about The force Awakens!

more concept art 6-24-12

Hello! Rachel Dragonfly here! Sorry I have not posted in such a long time, I have been tooling around things in my mind and scraping a lot of  drawings gone wrong like this one ..... show above.
Self doubt has played a big roll in my non drawing as of late.

I have draw a few dragons though,

And Finally I am back to Dragonfly Oracle

Sketch I upcoming art comics its been slow going But I know the more I persist The better the ideas will be.

Live well My friends more up dates soon!

Rachel Dragonfly out!

More Early comcept art of Meggan Oracle 8-11-12

Toying with ideas Let me know what you think... more will be posted as i have time to work =)